Some days I just want to bang my head in the wall!  Time ha what is time, I have none of that.  I work full-time as a store manager for a bank, sell Scentsy, sell Avon, make my own candles, and am a married mother of 4.  I love my family and they come before all of it when it comes down to it but bottom line the reason I do all the extra things is so they can have a better life, so i can get the more than I had when I was a child.  We all want better than we had for our children.

The reason I stated doing all this extra stuff was because I want to be a stay at home mom but I also know there is no way I cannot bring in some kind of income either, we have to be real.  Scentsy and Avon are great I do very well with them and am working on growing a bigger Scentsy and Avon team but all that takes time!  I raise my baby, she is 2 now and has gone to daycare since she was 6 weeks old, I hate to say that out loud.  It hurts my heart to know that I am paying some damn good money to raise my child and I want nothing more than to be that but I am honestly scared to stop working I have a good job and mine has always been the stable job.  My husband has always worked but his jobs seem to fade in and out and I do not know what we would do if he was inbeetween jobs and not have the extra income I bring in.

I have found blogging and I am so thankful for that it is the one play and I can release how I feel and just say it the way it is!  I want to be a stay at home mom I want to raise my child from morning until night!  Don’t get me wrong the lady that watches my daughter is wonderful I love her but I am jealous she gets my daughter all day I get her for a few hours each night and during those few hours we are doing dinner, baths, homework and everything else.